[NP-Clinical] For Carla and Priscilla

[David or Diane Dito]

Carla and Priscilla,

 

My thoughts and prayers are with you both right now. It is so hard taking
care of aging, ill and dying parents, not to mention our families, friends,
patients and ourselves. There aren't enough hours in the day, yet we do our
best to do it all, often at the expense of caring for ourselves. The fact
you both care so deeply about your parents and their well-being speaks
volumes about you as people.

 

It is hard to have the kind of specialized knowledge we possess and walk
away unscathed from the visions, memories and guilt associated with not just
the medical and hospital systems, but also death. To me.and I'll bet for
others, too.that's THE hardest part of doing what we do. It's even harder
when it's family.

 

Carla, I don't know you or your father, but somehow I think he knew and
appreciated how much you gave of yourself and your time in nurturing, caring
for and protecting him. He knew you did everything humanly possible for him
and did your best in an imperfect system. Your father and your best friend
understood that.

 

With cyberhugs and prayers for peace and healing,

Diane Dito

 

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From: np-clinical-bounces at nurse.net [mailto:np-clinical-bounces at nurse.net]
On Behalf Of Carla Anderson
Sent: Friday, May 18, 2007 2:36 AM
To: np-clinical at nurse.net
Subject: [NP-Clinical] Re: NP-Clinical Digest, Vol 14, Issue 53

 

Hey thats right, thanks Paula, I graduated from UTHSCSA in San Antonio Tx.
My mind has is a bit numb because my dad just died not from his lung cancer
which we had been so vigilant at fighting but from a horiffic series of what
is wrong with our medical system on May 8th. It was horribly traumatic.  I
am struggling with it, as a practitioner, feeling I did not spend every
night at every place, and I was exhausted from putting out all the medical
fires. I let a couple get by me, and my dad who had complete trust in me,
but none in the rest of the system paid the price,and so did I.  I am still
waking up with anxiety attacks, and listening to tapes at night,, and trying
to work off the guilt. The grief I understand, he was my best friend. My
friends in Portland are rallying around me. But there is a huge whole.
Meanwhile, my family in other states suddenly start emailing about memory
parties, and trying to find out about what little money he had...it is too
much. Carla 




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